We must have all faced several situations in life where we have to let go of things....The 'things' that I specify can be simple stuff as an item you wanted to have or much more complex things like a girl whom you love...
I have personally let go of a lot of things in life which were not meant for me....the main reason why I let go of such stuff was because I believed that I was not worthy of such stuff....
The biggest dream I let go was my dream to become a doctor...I have always wanted to become a doctor, from the time I was a kid....the idea was forced into me because of my name...Kenneth it seems was the name of a medical missionary...I still dont know any detail about that person except he was a missionary who was a doctor...but the idea was intriguing to me as a kid...I grew up watching the Discovery channel...watching all the late night shows which focused on the latest developments in human medicine...all the shows I watched were also medical dramas like House or Grey's anatomy...
But when the time came for me to write my entrance exam, which decided which college admission I would get...I wasted my time, roaming around with friends and not touching my books at all....Only if I had learnt to focus more in studies rather than enjoying life, I would have been a doctor who was writing this blog, not a software engineer....
I got less marks in my entrance test and because of that I was offered a seat in a dental college...but the idea of treating people with bad teeth, when compared to treating a whole person was totally bad in my sense....so I declined the offer and got into engineering...this was as per my thought at that time a better idea when compared to looking at people's mouths....
So I let go of the dream of becoming a doctor....
But the reality was different, though I had let go of the dream I still wasn't able to focus on my studies to become a software engineer....I was never able to focus more in my computer classes in college and my internal test marks were the worst in computer science subjects...
I was about to write my first annual semester tests and it was only a month to go before the final exams came that I realized that becoming a doctor was out of my reach...I had only one option to go and that was to become a software engineer...
So with a motivation provided to me by my friends in college and a lecturer who spent most of his time teaching me the entire first year syllabus to me on my way home from college...I cleared the first year exams with the highest score in my college....
To tell you honestly, until now I have never let go of the dream to become a doctor, I have however learned that it is out of reach...so there is no point in wasting my life ahead thinking about it....
We have only one life ahead of us and that life cant be wasted thinking about our past failures....we have to move on....let go of our lost dreams....and move on with our life....
The past cannot come back to us....the time we wasted will not be given to us.....and the decisions we made in the past cannot be reversed.....
All we can do is to let go of our dreams in the past and to move on with our lives of creating a better future....
That is what I did...I let go of the dream of becoming a doctor because I messed up my decision at that time and became a software engineer the decisions which were still left in my hands...
So that is all I want to tell you in this blog entry...everyone makes mistakes and many mistakes that we make knowingly or unknowingly cost us our dreams...but dreams once lost cannot be got back....but we still have the opportunity to dream new and better dreams....
So lets not waste time based on our lost dreams...but dream more to create new dreams to create a new future....
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